This Crazy Thing We Call Life!

This is the time of year when we evaluate our lives. We look at the last 364 days and ponder on our struggles and our triumphs. We look at the person we have become over the last 12 months and we plan to do better in the coming 12. This is the time of year we are dedicated to making a change, and as I sit here thinking back to this time exactly 365 days ago, I am astounded at how far I have come. Almost ashamed of the person I was then and truly proud of the person I am now. For one of the first times in my life I can say that I can see myself becoming the person I want to become. In the last year I have felt sorrow and defeat and loneliness. I have faced struggles and heartache and frustrations. But I have also felt peace. I have felt joy and happiness and love. I set goals and I achieved them. I have had experiences that have taught me so many valuable lessons, and I have met people who have changed me forever. And I am so grateful. And so as we finish out this awfully beautiful year...

As I sit here sick in my bed, covered in blankets and jackets and all sorts of things to keep me warm, listening to the constant chatter of my family and watching beautiful white snow cover the Texas ground, I cannot help but be completely overwhelmed with emotions. Maybe it is because I am home surrounded by the people I love which doesn't happen all too often. Or perhaps it's because I have the cold of the century; a mix of being drugged up on cold medicine and feeling crummy. But regardless of what the reason, I am sitting here full of joy and gratitude for all I have been given. I think of dear ones separated from their families and loved ones and it hurts my heart. I pray they know how much they are loved and missed. I think of dear ones who are far away celebrating with those they love the most and I am grateful to have them in my life. I think of all the tender mercies I have received, especially recently. I think of my precious family, that drives me absolutely crazy, b...

Sometimes I think I am really funny. I say things that are ridiculous or stupid or lame and just laugh and laugh at them because sometimes a good laugh is just what you need. And I love laughing. I love the feeling of not being able to breathe because you cannot control the gut busting laugh coming out of your mouth. I love the "I have six-pack abs" feeling, the silent laughter, the tears rolling down my face because it's just that funny feeling. I love causing that, and I love love love it when people make me feel that way. Sometimes I cook delicious foods. There is just something about slaving away in the kitchen that makes me feel better about myself and everything around me. Better than therapy, cooking is calming. It makes me focus on the recipe or the dish instead of everything else. It clears my head, allows me to focus, allows me to see and think clearly. It opens my mind. Sometimes when I cook delicious foods I share with people around me.  Creating something tha...

HOME : The place in which one’s domestic affections are centered. A house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person family, or household. The place or region where something is native or most common. Home is a four letter word with weight beyond measure. It is a sanctuary. It is a safe place. It’s for free expression, not good impressions. Home is loud obnoxious chatter with my siblings. It’s joking and teasing and laughing till your side hurts and the tears stream from your eyes. Home is hugs from my Mom that somehow completely swallow me up even though she is smaller than I am. It is conversations with my Dad about music or movies, or camping, or anything or nothing at all that remind me how similar we actually are. Home is getting to help my baby brother with his prayers at night and realizing that he’s not a baby anymore. It’s eating the meals I grew up on, in the place I grew up, with the dishes I always used. It’s the unexpected knock at the bedroom doo...

Every day is a battle. Some days I win and some days I lay my head down at night and think "I will try again tomorrow." Life is hard and it was meant to be that way. But even with that knowledge and understanding it is still sometimes a struggle to get through. I am at the point where everything is bothering me. And it is little stupid things and the worst part is that in the back of my head I know that I am being ridiculous. I know that I am over reacting and that I should not be so irritated by these things. But I am. I am bothered by stupid little things. And I don't really know what to do to make that go away. I don't want to push away these people in my life because they are good people. But at the same time I get so angry when I am there and I just cant figure it out. School is crazy right now, and I just started working again, which is great but also rough because that is one more thing I need to worry about. I have a great group of friends that I love spending...

Seems like there’s always someone who disapproves, they’ll judge it like they know about me and you. I was lucky like a four leaf clover.  All you need is love, love, Love is all you need.  Don't you draw the Queen of Diamonds, boy, she'll beat you if she's able, you know, the Queen of Hearts is always your best bet. Fathers be good to your daughters, daughters will love like you do. Girls become lovers, who turn into mothers, so mothers be good to your daughters, too. Freedom, well, that's just some people talking. Your prison is walking through this world all alone.   I said, “leave,” but all I really want is you. Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday, b ut I realized some bigger dreams of mine. On my knees and out of luck,  I look up.   The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls.  Don't test the ones you love, it will only tear us down, if you want to feel alive then learn to love your ground. You call me up again...

I love love. I am the absolute definition of a hopeless romantic (if you look it up in the dictionary I am fairly certain you will just find a picture of my face!) I love love songs and romantic lovey movies and things of that nature. It makes me so happy to see people who are in love; to see how they look at each other. I want someone to look at me that way. I want someone to need me for forever. I want to find that person that makes all those lovey quotes you see on pinterest apply to me. Not necessarily now, I am in no hurry to get to that point of my life. But at the same time I am seeing so many people in my life at that stage, and even though I am SO not ready to be there myself I still look at how happy they are and I want that in my life some day. I got a letter from my best friend yesterday. It has been so long since I've talked to him (besides letters) and even longer since I've seen him. Man do I miss that kid. He was very open and honest with me. It was refreshing...

I am completely full to the very brim with mixed emotions. One of the people I look up to the most, one of my heroes, someone I simply adore got married to the love of her life yesterday and even still sitting here I get emotional about it. I only want the very best for her and I am so very happy that she found someone so amazing to spend the rest of her life with. But at the same time I feel that I'm losing such a special friend. She embraced me, and loved me simply for who I am and to me that means a lot. My heart was touched and I will forever be a better person because of her and her friendship. I spent the weekend with friends who are like family and I am so blessed. And then when things didn't work out the way I expected, I was able to turn to other friends (who are like family) and things were all okay. Except they are moving to the opposite side of the country. I am so grateful for the wonderful examples in my life. But then I miss people with all my heart that are bus...

Not completely, but a little bit yeah. I am so tired, my eyes are heavy and they burn. I have no desire to do anything at this point. It's cold and my body just sort of hurts. We've gotten snow the last two days and I am not a fan. Last night I got a phone call from my Father. Apparently my parents haven't been talking to each other about some things in my life the way I had hoped. I sat on my floor a sobbed talking to my Dad on the phone. I miss him. Not only is he my Dad, but he's one of my best friends and favorite people to be around. We had a very good talk and it helped me a lot...or so I thought. I then spent the night watching a movie and hanging out with some friends. It was great. I cant explain the love I feel when I am with such wonderful people. I went to bed last night just as confused as I the night before, just as confused as I will tonight. It's hard. My Mom keeps telling me I can do hard things. Today she made me promise that when I doubt myself or...

has been long, has been stressful, has been exhausting. I could use a hug.

Sometimes I have to make decisions about my life. And those decisions are hard and they scare me and I don't know what to do. Sometimes I think I have an answer and then a few days later I am doubting and second guessing everything that I think I  have figured out. It's so not cool. And above all I can't handle that fact that I don't know what I am supposed to do! How do I figure this out? How do I know if I am making the right decision? How? How do I know what it is that I am supposed to do? My life is a tad jumbled and messy right now.

It's 2 in the morning. I am sitting alone in the dark in my room on my bed. My roommate is in the other room watching a movie with her boy. The tv is loud, so I know exactly which part of the movie they are at. Batman Begins is a pretty great movie. For whatever reason the whole situation is just making me think about my life. I miss people. A lot. And I don't have tons of friends, so that is cool I guess, but whether it's been a week or a year since I saw you last I miss people in my life. I am not the girl who goes on dates all the time (or ever really...) I am not the girl who watches movies on the couch with a boy who is interested in me because I am not really the girl who guys become interested in. Which is fine. I am not upset about it at all and in all honesty it's probably my own fault. But I bring it up because I am sitting here on my bed...listening to Batman, knowing that my roommate is cuddling with a boy on the other side of the wall. And it just reminds m...

chap stick letters people who make me laugh surprise visits milk delicious food smiles rain people who laugh at my jokes sleeping in a cozy bed reading a good book naps naps naps movies people who make me feel loved checking the mail rainbows belts sunshine cuddling mountains thanksgiving peaches and cream oatmeal family the bond between sisters inside jokes jokes in general understanding concepts in class harry potter rings texas photography helping people cooking eating fishing blogs hiking going on drives trucks listening nature cold cereal camping wearing hats music late night chats roommate adventures tandem bikes jumping in leaves rainboots sunsets hot chocolate laughing The Gospel of Jesus Christ basketball with my brothers love sports pumpkin pie socks workout clothes running blessings The Scriptures general conference puppies brushing my teeth people who are just genuinely good summertime snow cones guitar g...

Sometimes I feel like I have no control over anything in my life. Sometimes I get frustrated at everything, including my upstairs neighbors who are quite often loud people. And sometimes I just struggle with things. That is when I vacuum. We have a rug. It's cream. It's nice and soft and makes the room look better. Except for when it is filthy, which I feel like is most the time because hey, we live here and we walk on the rug, and we're girls so our hair sheds (especially mine) and so it makes sense why the rug gets dirty. And usually it doesn't bother me. Except when I like to vacuum. And then all of a sudden I find myself, unable to control the noisy neighbors, or homework in classes, or decisions in my life, on my hands and knees vacuuming the rug. This rug that is still soft and nice and still cream. And in a few days it will be dirty again and I will just keep walking by. But for now, the rug is clean and my life does not seem like it's spinning uncontrollably...

I absolutely love this quote! I think I have even talked about it before but ohh well. I am so grateful for my life and the people who are in it! I am grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ and for a loving Father in Heaven. I will write more later because I don't have much time before conference starts again, but I cant get over how incredibly blessed I am! The best certainly is yet to come!

Sometimes you just need a hug. Sometimes a hug from a certain someone would make everything so much better. And sometimes that person is a million miles away. Unfortunate.

I am so incredibly blessed.

So for my English class I had to write a "This I Believe Essay." I explained the essay a bit in my last post so feel free to look back and see that, but basically we were writing about a personal philosophy that we live our lives by. I have been debating whether or not I wanted to post my essay on here because it's about a topic I have already written about (in fact a line or two might be the same) but what it comes down to is that I am really proud of this essay. It is one the of the first things I have created in a while that I am really proud of and because of that, and the fact that I am so passionate about the topic, I want to share this piece of me with you. From the get-go I was so intregued by the idea of writing about a personal philosophy! You don't normally think about it, at least I didn't, but everyone no matter who you are has personal beliefs specific to them and how their live their everyday lives. This is one of mine. I hope you enjoy it, but if n...

I should be doing homework. I know I know, most my posts start out that way. The fact of the matter is that sometimes I blog to avoid doing homework. It happens. Life goes on. Lately, admits the hustle and bustle of the start of a new school year, I have been thinking a lot about the little things that make me me. I know that sounds weird (but let's face it, I'm a little weird) but when you're living with new people, applying for jobs, and writing papers about things you believe in, it kind of gets the gears rolling in your brain. And sometimes I struggle to turn those gears off. In my English class (which by the way I haven't taken an English class since fall 2010 and I am loving it!) we are currently writing a "This I Believe Essay." Inspired by the NPR series "This I Believe" the assignment is to write an essay about a belief or philosophy that you live your life by. And not something generic like "I believe in Christ", "I believe ...

Misguided Ghosts I'm going away for a while But I'll be back Don't try to follow me 'Cause I'll return as soon as possible See, I'm trying to find my place But it might not be here where I feel safe We all learn to make mistakes And run from them, from them With no direction We'll run from them, from them With no conviction 'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts Travelin' endlessly Don't need no roads In fact, they follow me And we just go in circles And now I'm told that this is life That pain is just a simple compromise So we can get what we want out of it Would someone care to classify? Our broken hearts and twisted minds So I can find someone to rely on And run to them, to them Full speed ahead Oh, you are not useless We are just Misguided ghosts Travelin' endlessly The ones we trusted the most Pushed us far away And there's no one road We should not be the same But I'm just a ghost A...

There comes a time in life where everything you once knew is gone. A time of questioning and beginnings and wonder. A time where you are forced out of your comfort zone to discover yourself. I have a strange feeling that I have just arrived there.

Really I do! I think that one of the most honorable things you can do, especially for a young man, is serve a mission. It's a completely selfless act of service, giving up everything to go preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ for two years. Away from friends, family, loved ones. Giving up time and money and the comforts of home. Yes all these sacrifices bring about tremendous, indescribable blessings but that is not to say that it isn't a challenge. You have to be completely dedicated, and probably the best thing about losing all my friends because they are leaving is getting to see the drive, the passion, the desire in their eyes before they go. I love my Savior Jesus Christ and if I was able to go serve at 19 you can best believe that is where I would be right now. But since I cant, I wouldn't trade anything for the opportunity I have to support these young men, who I care for so dearly, as they go off to serve the Lord. I love missionaries. I love the idea of being a missio...

Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to moments. Moments that I have replayed over and over again in my mind a countless number of times. Moments that I have gone back to so much that I am not even sure if all the details are what I remember or something I fashioned in my mind so much that I believe they really did happen. Moments that will stand out as big and important when I look back on my life in the future. Moments I wish I had lived in a little more. You see, sometimes these little moments are just that, something that happens and then you move on to the next one. But sometimes, we find out later on that those little moments are all that we have, and that those little moments are actually big moments in our lives. And then all you have is that little moment to go back to in your mind and you suddenly realize you should have been paying more attention, you should have realized that it was big, you should have lived in that moment right when it was ha...

I believe in miracles. I believe in second chances. I believe that timing is everything. I believe laughter heals. I believe in summer nights. I believe in best friend bonding time. I believe in snow cones. I believe you're beautiful. I believe in changing the world. I believe in adventures. I believe love comes in all different shapes and forms. I believe letters are magical. I believe in mint green nail polish. I believe in sandals and cowboy boots and tennies. I believe there is beauty in everything. I believe glasses make you look smarter. I believe in learning how to work hard. I believe in earning what you have. I believe in family. I believe that sometimes your friends can be family. I believe in the redeeming love of my Savior, Jesus Christ. I believe in heroes. I believe a picture is worth a thousand words. I believe people are sent to our lives to make us grow. I believe in smiling. I believe in tender mercies. I believe in being a good friend. I believe in pizza for brea...

"...sat on my window, and they told me I don't need to worry.":) Haha just a summer-y song that is stuck in my head right now, I kinda love it! Let your hair down, enjoy life, and smile!:) Because things will work out like they should. Much easier said than done, believe me I know, but I am continually learning that it makes life worth it when you just try and enjoy every second. Just wait and see where life takes you:) On the other hand, sometimes wait is the worst! Time seems to go SO SLOW and days drag on and it is hard sometimes. Waiting waiting waiting. Not my favorite at all. Sadly it is a part of the great circle of life! (haha yeahhh I said it! referenced the Lion King FOR SURE!!) SO today is July 1st and I am starting something called "the 30 day 300 challenge." It's basically a daily workout plan that is supposed to get great results. That's right, I WORK OUT! Haha not really, that's why I am doing this, to help me start working out agai...

Okay so here's the deal. I sometimes struggle with finding things to blog about. I will have ideas, sentences or phrases that I want to talk about but when I finally sit down to write I cant come up with anything beyond those sentences and phrases. And it's been happening more and more lately so combined with the fact that I work my life away, explains why I haven't posted anything in a month or so. BUT the last week or so I have found myself with several things on my mind. And so I am sitting down to talk (write?) about them. Some funny (okay so maybe not that funny...), some religious and some serious. SO consider yourself warned...this might be the longest blog post of your life. I hope you enjoy!:) So first things first, I work all the time. Having a full time job is not only time consuming and tiring, but SUPER STRESSFUL! I have woken up in the middle of the night with names and numbers racing through my head on numerous occasions...each time in a panic that I have me...

First I just want to take the time to thank those men and women who serve (or have served) our great country. Anyone in any branch of the Military, know how grateful I am for you! The sacrifice of you and your loved ones is beyond anything I have ever been asked to do, and I will forever be grateful for your service! On this day, and everyday, know that you are appreciated, know that you are loved, and know that you are in my prayers. Thank you! Second. Being a grown up is SO over rated! I have so many things I want to do this summer and instead I feel like I am working my life away. NOT.COOL. Okay so it is good to have the money that I need to pay for things like rent and food and gas and school. But right now it is just a bummer. Also I am missing Logan so much! I miss people, the mountain air, the outdoorsy things, and just the atmosphere that only seems to be found in Logan. There are some people I miss so bad it hurts. That's the worst part. But I am here just working and wor...

Okay. So my dear friend Lexy who also blogs text me the other day to inform me that I hadn't blogged in a while and she wanted me too...but I feel like every time I blog it is about the same things. And that is so boring!! I don't want to be boring I want to be interesting and exciting and inspiring. But then I write things and read back over them and they all sound the same. So I'm going to go ahead and blog away and I apologize if my life is redundant:) Alright so when I was 16 I started working at this place called Going Bonkers (it's kind of Chuck-E-Cheese on steriods) where I did all sorts of things, mostly birthday parties, for two and half years until I left for school. But this week I am back and it wasn't very great. In fact after a shift and a half I was seriously contemplating quitting. BUT! I got another job so now I only have to be at GB on Saturdays which makes working there much more bearable. This new job is great! I work for a couple who runs their ...

Thank you. Thank you for all the kisses and band aides and sack lunches. For the years of giving me rides,  and help with homework, and advice. And for the numerous hours spent listening to me gripe about all sorts of things. Thank you for supporting me in all my crazy ideas, for letting me dream crazy dreams, and for showering me with loves. Thank you for hugs. For the countless doctor's appointments and sick days and all you did to make me feel better. Thank you for loving me at my lowest. And for teaching me what it means to have a testimony of the gospel. Thank you for your help with school projects, and for coming to all my sports events. Thank you for your example of how to be a good wife and mother. For teaching me what it means to love unconditionally, how to be selfless, and how to patient. Thank you for teaching me how to cook, how to sew, how to laugh, how to live, how to love. On this Mother's Day, I want to say thank you for all that you do for me and our fam...

       ...but seriously guys I really should be studying. I have two KILLER tests tomorrow that just might kick my butt, and I cannot get myself to focus. I AM THE WORST FINALS WEEK STUDY-ER EVER!!! I just get too distracted by everything. Pretty much anything sounds better than studying at this point...but I also don't necessarily want to pack either. So basically I am doing everything except what I need too. haha. And just when I thought I had done everything I could and I was finally going to have to study...I decided to blog:) PERFECT, RIGHT?? Now you get to hear all about my life and I get to put off dreaded statistics and life sciences for a little bit longer. It's a win win situation!:)        Maybe it is because the school year is about to finish (after tomorrow I will have finished my freshman year of college...when did that happen?), because I am about to move back home for the summer, or because I have a lot of friends doing ...

Today was the last day of classes. I just have a week of tests and a long day of driving that separate me from home and summer and family and friends. And I am so freaking excited haha! I literally cannot wait! But there are also some things I am going to miss. Logan is beautiful! I absolutely love it. I will miss the mountains and the cool air and all the trees. I will miss having the temple 3 blocks away, and seeing it every single day from up on campus. Such a blessing. And tonight especially I am feeling a little sadness at the loss of my star stickers. When I moved in 9 months ago I realized that very first night that some one who had lived in my room previously had put up a star sticker galaxy on my ceiling. And at first I was a little bugged by it. But I cant tell you the number of nights I have laid awake staring at those star stickers thinking about everything under the sun. They have been a comfort and a confidant for the last year and I have truly grown to love them. I will ...

I had a moment of weakness. We all do, we all have times that we struggle. I woke up this morning feeling like crap. Not necessarily bad, but certainly not good. I was up registering for classes which was 5444645 million times harder than it should have been. Then I laid in bed for hours wondering why I was not sleeping and this morning my head was pounding. I boycotted school today. Just didn't go to class. Instead I laid in bed all day like this, thinking about my life and all the unknown in it right now. There is so much about my future that I cannot control, so much that I don't know, so much up in the air right now that I am completely losing my mind. And on top of that I am going home in a few weeks and my job situation for the summer is still unknown and that scares the crap out of me. Today I packed pretty much everything thing I can at this point. I am so ready to go home, to see my family and my best friends! And tonight I was talking to one of my very best friends an...

Sitting in stats. That's what I'm doing right now. And clearly I'm paying tons of attention right now...:) I hate this class. It is so boring and he doesn't teach very well. My friends Lisa and Dan say hi:) haha! But really, this post is about more than a horrible professor in a subject I detest... Last weekend was General Conference for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. A two day conference where the Leaders of our Church meet and teach us. It is broadcast to countries all across the world, and thousands of people come together to listen to the Prophet's voice. It is incredible. Such a spiritually uplifting experience and twice a year we get to have these conferences. And this last weekend did not disappoint! Like a previous post stated, I had a friend last week do some things that really hurt me. Anyways so I was pretty angry with this person (and honestly, I still kind of am) and I didn't want to go through conference focusing on that anger. S...

First, let me just say, I had a HORRIBLE week. Like one of the worst/longest weeks of MY LIFE! Okay so maybe not of my life, but of the semester FOR SURE!! Without going into too much of the oh so lovely details, I had tests and quizzes and service hours and lessons to teach, and academically my plans sort of crumbled a little bit and so I had to spend time trying to put it back together and figure out what I am going to do. STRESS STRESS STRESS for sure!!! AND THEN! On top of all of that I had a friend not treat me the nicest. Yeah I know that makes me sound like I am five, but the thing is I was trying really hard to do what I felt was best even if it wasn't necessarily what I wanted and I am human and when someone isn't the nicest it can hurt, especially when it is someone you care about. ANYWAYS, I literally felt like I was running non-stop all week long! But now it is over and after class today I just laid in my bed and did nothing but relax! (I took a nap, it was fantast...

Why am I such a hopeless romantic? Allowing myself to get caught up in the idea of love and finding the one. I watch chick flicks over and over again hoping that someday that magical experience will happen to me and that I will find my happily ever after. I love love. The idea that someone could care for me enough to give me their all, and I the same to them. I long for it and yet I am so scared that one day it will find me. That one day all this dreaming and imagining I do will become the reality and I will no longer be able to hide behind my movies and my books. And then what? I don't really know...and I don't really know why this has been on my mind except for the fact that I have been up to my usual watching of romantic movies and reading lovey quotes. Ha also I have a friend who says "love happens when you don't expect it...BUT WHAT IF YOU ALWAYS EXPECT IT?!" haha I love that. And also this post is completely random and I don't really know what else to sa...

So I know it has been a while since I have blogged anything and for that I do apologize. I don't know who reads this if anyone does, but I should be better about being more regular with my posts. The truth is this....I have wanted to post multiple times actually, I just cant get my words straight. And it has been extremely frustrating. I am at a spot in my life where things just are. I don't even know how to explain it better than that. Things just are. They are frustrating and tiring and good and confusing and strengthening and humbling and I don't even know what to do with myself. I have no job (and not do to a lack of looking I must add), and no car, I have been sick for like a week now which is SO overrated, and I am a little overwhelmed with school work right now. I desperately want this semester to be over with, to know what I am going to be doing/where I am going to be living this summer, and actually have some concrete plans. And let me tell you, I am an emotional p...

So I am going home this weekend. I leave in the "morning" (in like 7 hours or so) and I am driving down to Texas from Utah. It certainly is a long drive but my youngest brother is getting baptized a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and I am so excited to be there to support him and just spend time with my family. In fact I am up this late because I have been packing but that is not important. I have been thinking a lot lately about who I am, and I was shocked to realize that I am not quite sure who I am or what it is that I like to do (you know, the generic questions that everyone asks everyone when they meet someone knew and it suddenly dawns on  me that I don't have a clue!) I ran track for 6 years, so for the past  6 years that's who I was/what I did. I was a team member, I was a captain, I was a leader, a runner, an athlete. And now it is gone and not only do I miss hurdles like crazy but I miss being on a team like crazy as well. And I ha...

I absolutely love those ordinary days, where life is good, and you are content with how things are. The days where nothing out of the ordinary happens, they are just good and normal and you don't think anything of them...until that one moment...when something special happens....and from then on your ordinary good day turns into a spectacular memory, all in the blink of an eye. Well that is today! And I think it is fantastic. It has gone like this...I got up and went to my first class and then left after about 5 minutes cause I didn't feel great and I just wanted to sleep...so I did. I went and took a nap and then got up and went to my second class. After that I went to one of my education classes where I had to share a slightly embarrassing essay I had written about a very good friend of  mine (the essay was on your most important learning experience) in response to which I was surprisingly met with love and support and it just made me feel good. Next I went to my last class of...

Music is heaven sent. I truly believe that. I believe that everyone has their own taste for music, but it can all be beautiful in its own way. I believe that music can be a beautiful escape. And I believe that if you are REALLY lucky you find a song that says exactly what you feel at that moment in time, exactly what you cant say yourself. What a blessing. For me, right now, it is the words of Christina Perri's new album lovestrong. Now of course not every single thing is pertaining to my life from this album but together as a whole it is simply fantastic, and exactly what I wish I could say to the world right now. Especially, the song miles ....with phrases like "Proud of me, that’s the only way I want you to be Look at me and love what you see" and "I promise to always come home to you Remind me that I’m older to be brave, smart, sweet, and bolder  And don’t give up on what we’re trying to do Don’t count the miles, count the “I love you”s" Absolutely incredibl...