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Mentally Broken and Boycotting School!

I had a moment of weakness. We all do, we all have times that we struggle. I woke up this morning feeling like crap. Not necessarily bad, but certainly not good. I was up registering for classes which was 5444645 million times harder than it should have been. Then I laid in bed for hours wondering why I was not sleeping and this morning my head was pounding. I boycotted school today. Just didn't go to class. Instead I laid in bed all day like this, thinking about my life and all the unknown in it right now. There is so much about my future that I cannot control, so much that I don't know, so much up in the air right now that I am completely losing my mind. And on top of that I am going home in a few weeks and my job situation for the summer is still unknown and that scares the crap out of me. Today I packed pretty much everything thing I can at this point. I am so ready to go home, to see my family and my best friends! And tonight I was talking to one of my very best friends and it all became too much. I broke down. I sat on my floor and cried a little bit while reading her texts. And then I got angry that I was crying on my floor haha. It's so stupid! But that's life, and it happened and I moved on. I am just so worn down right now and I am so ready for this semester to be finished.
 My family is so amazing! I miss them so much! This picture of the girls is one of my favorites! I can hear each individual laugh when I look at it and see each individual personality and it just makes me smile! They are so incredible and I just cant say enough about how much I miss them! And this one of the boys...ohh man! They both just crack me up! They are so different and yet so similar and they both let me be crazy and take silly picture with them, I love it!

Kamille Hudson is one of my best friends! And it's crazy cause we have like 3 pictures together and that is it...we're not sure how that has happened, but it's going to change this summer for sure! We talk constantly and share everything with each other and I cannot wait to be reunited after all this time!
HAHA my best friend Richard! What can I say? He's a character! And he leaves this summer to serve two years as a full time missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. He is going to be a great missionary and I am so excited for him, but I am also excited to go on some last adventures before he leaves.

 And then there is Lexy. Lexy is also one of my best friends!  And seriously, she's SUCH a gem!:) She always lets me rant about things to her and always tells me that she loves me which is so great! She's been at school only a few hours away from me but still not cool! I cant wait for our amazing summer we have planned, after all we have to make up for time lost!


Needless to say...I CANT WAIT FOR SUMMER!!!





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