Why am I such a hopeless romantic? Allowing myself to get caught up in the idea of love and finding the one. I watch chick flicks over and over again hoping that someday that magical experience will happen to me and that I will find my happily ever after. I love love. The idea that someone could care for me enough to give me their all, and I the same to them. I long for it and yet I am so scared that one day it will find me. That one day all this dreaming and imagining I do will become the reality and I will no longer be able to hide behind my movies and my books. And then what? I don't really know...and I don't really know why this has been on my mind except for the fact that I have been up to my usual watching of romantic movies and reading lovey quotes. Ha also I have a friend who says "love happens when you don't expect it...BUT WHAT IF YOU ALWAYS EXPECT IT?!" haha I love that. And also this post is completely random and I don't really know what else to say. I just kinda love love.
This is the time of year when we evaluate our lives. We look at the last 364 days and ponder on our struggles and our triumphs. We look at the person we have become over the last 12 months and we plan to do better in the coming 12. This is the time of year we are dedicated to making a change, and as I sit here thinking back to this time exactly 365 days ago, I am astounded at how far I have come. Almost ashamed of the person I was then and truly proud of the person I am now. For one of the first times in my life I can say that I can see myself becoming the person I want to become. In the last year I have felt sorrow and defeat and loneliness. I have faced struggles and heartache and frustrations. But I have also felt peace. I have felt joy and happiness and love. I set goals and I achieved them. I have had experiences that have taught me so many valuable lessons, and I have met people who have changed me forever. And I am so grateful. And so as we finish out this awfully beautiful year...
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