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Mixed Emotions.

I am completely full to the very brim with mixed emotions.
One of the people I look up to the most, one of my heroes, someone I simply adore got married to the love of her life yesterday and even still sitting here I get emotional about it. I only want the very best for her and I am so very happy that she found someone so amazing to spend the rest of her life with. But at the same time I feel that I'm losing such a special friend. She embraced me, and loved me simply for who I am and to me that means a lot. My heart was touched and I will forever be a better person because of her and her friendship. I spent the weekend with friends who are like family and I am so blessed. And then when things didn't work out the way I expected, I was able to turn to other friends (who are like family) and things were all okay. Except they are moving to the opposite side of the country. I am so grateful for the wonderful examples in my life. But then I miss people with all my heart that are busy serving the Lord. I am so grateful for my knowledge of the gospel and the comfort it is to know that families are forever. At the same time my heart aches for a very dear friend who's lost a loved one. And what do you say at that point? Especially when they tell you they are fine but it seems like they aren't? Especially when they are someone you've really grown to care about as a person and a friend? Especially when they are serving you and helping you, and all you can think about is how it's unnecessary and you should be the one serving them? My heart hurts and it's happy and sad and it doesn't know what to do. Except cry. I am really good at crying. I do it all the time. And I am like a little old lady, pulling out my handkerchief. It's embarrassing. But not really. It's just me.

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