Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to moments. Moments that I have replayed over and over again in my mind a countless number of times. Moments that I have gone back to so much that I am not even sure if all the details are what I remember or something I fashioned in my mind so much that I believe they really did happen. Moments that will stand out as big and important when I look back on my life in the future. Moments I wish I had lived in a little more. You see, sometimes these little moments are just that, something that happens and then you move on to the next one. But sometimes, we find out later on that those little moments are all that we have, and that those little moments are actually big moments in our lives. And then all you have is that little moment to go back to in your mind and you suddenly realize you should have been paying more attention, you should have realized that it was big, you should have lived in that moment right when it was happening. Because now you cant. Now all you can do is try to remember details and wonder what would have happened if you had only realized what that moment would mean someday. Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to a place and time that I will never be in again. I try to remember every detail so that I don't feel like the moment is slipping away as much. Sometimes, it's the little moments we hang onto the most.
Okay first things first....I went to WA to see my friend Liz. Look how cute she is! She got a grown up job and moved to the *cutest* little town in WA and I miss her, so I took a few days for myself and went on a trip to see her. Secondly, I want it to be known that I DID invite a friend to come with me. I have a good friend who I would have loved to have join me on the trip, but when he couldn't come I was sad but didn't bat an eye. Here are the reasons that I invited him: He is excellent company. He has a great taste in music. He is friends with Liz as well. I thought it would be fun if he came. The end that is all. I didn't invite him to make the trip cheaper, to help drive, or to make me feel safer. It would have been fun if he could have come, but either way I was going to go. I drove to Washington by myself because I could. Because I am saying YES. Because I am done waiting for "someday". Someday when I have more money, or...
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