Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to moments. Moments that I have replayed over and over again in my mind a countless number of times. Moments that I have gone back to so much that I am not even sure if all the details are what I remember or something I fashioned in my mind so much that I believe they really did happen. Moments that will stand out as big and important when I look back on my life in the future. Moments I wish I had lived in a little more. You see, sometimes these little moments are just that, something that happens and then you move on to the next one. But sometimes, we find out later on that those little moments are all that we have, and that those little moments are actually big moments in our lives. And then all you have is that little moment to go back to in your mind and you suddenly realize you should have been paying more attention, you should have realized that it was big, you should have lived in that moment right when it was happening. Because now you cant. Now all you can do is try to remember details and wonder what would have happened if you had only realized what that moment would mean someday. Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to a place and time that I will never be in again. I try to remember every detail so that I don't feel like the moment is slipping away as much. Sometimes, it's the little moments we hang onto the most.
My cousin Cade had his Missionary Farewell yesterday and I feel so blessed to have been able to attend. First off, he is amazing. He is one of the funniest people I know and he is smart and a musical genius. He is simply his own person and there are endless characteristics/qualities that he possess that I would love to develop in myself. So I mean it is easy to say that I love the kid to death. But he spoke in sacrament meeting and the spirit that he brought was truly inspiring, and stronger than anything I have felt in a long time. It touched my heart. And I knew that he was called of God to serve, that he is worthy to serve, and that he has a testimony of the gospel and our Savior, Jesus Christ. It was such an incredible experience. When he concluded he played an original arrangement of Be Still My Soul on the piano and again the spirit was overwhelming. That is my favorite hymn, and it brings me so much comfort which I coincidentally really needed at that moment. Reminding ...
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