Little Moments

Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to moments. Moments that I have replayed over and over again in my mind a countless number of times. Moments that I have gone back to so much that I am not even sure if all the details are what I remember or something I fashioned in my mind so much that I believe they really did happen. Moments that will stand out as big and important when I look back on my life in the future. Moments I wish I had lived in a little more. You see, sometimes these little moments are just that, something that happens and then you move on to the next one. But sometimes, we find out later on that those little moments are all that we have, and that those little moments are actually big moments in our lives. And then all you have is that little moment to go back to in your mind and you suddenly realize you should have been paying more attention, you should have realized that it was big, you should have lived in that moment right when it was happening. Because now you cant. Now all you can do is try to remember details and wonder what would have happened if you had only realized what that moment would mean someday. Sometimes, when I can't sleep mostly, my mind will wander back to a place and time that I will never be in again. I try to remember every detail so that I don't feel like the moment is slipping away as much. Sometimes, it's the little moments we hang onto the most.