Tonight I Feel Broken.

Not completely, but a little bit yeah. I am so tired, my eyes are heavy and they burn. I have no desire to do anything at this point. It's cold and my body just sort of hurts. We've gotten snow the last two days and I am not a fan. Last night I got a phone call from my Father. Apparently my parents haven't been talking to each other about some things in my life the way I had hoped. I sat on my floor a sobbed talking to my Dad on the phone. I miss him. Not only is he my Dad, but he's one of my best friends and favorite people to be around. We had a very good talk and it helped me a lot...or so I thought. I then spent the night watching a movie and hanging out with some friends. It was great. I cant explain the love I feel when I am with such wonderful people. I went to bed last night just as confused as I the night before, just as confused as I will tonight. It's hard. My Mom keeps telling me I can do hard things. Today she made me promise that when I doubt myself or am struggling, to repeat that in my head. "I can do hard things." I can do hard things. I can do hard things. I can do hard things. I can do hard things. I can do hard things....
Tonight I feel broken, just a little bit cracked. I know things will come together, I know I will get through, I know I can do hard things. I just want answers. I just want sleep. I just want someone to wrap me up in a hug that lasts forever. I just want to feel less alone.