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It's 2am....

It's 2 in the morning. I am sitting alone in the dark in my room on my bed. My roommate is in the other room watching a movie with her boy. The tv is loud, so I know exactly which part of the movie they are at. Batman Begins is a pretty great movie. For whatever reason the whole situation is just making me think about my life. I miss people. A lot. And I don't have tons of friends, so that is cool I guess, but whether it's been a week or a year since I saw you last I miss people in my life. I am not the girl who goes on dates all the time (or ever really...) I am not the girl who watches movies on the couch with a boy who is interested in me because I am not really the girl who guys become interested in. Which is fine. I am not upset about it at all and in all honesty it's probably my own fault. But I bring it up because I am sitting here on my bed...listening to Batman, knowing that my roommate is cuddling with a boy on the other side of the wall. And it just reminds me how different I am from people. It reminds me that different people can be close friends. It reminds me that I don't have tons of friends in my life. It reminds me that I have people in my life I wish I could spend more time with. It reminds me that I am okay with being true to myself because I know someday I am going to find a boy who loves that self and I will be happy. It reminds me that life is bigger than who came over to watch a movie on a friday night. It reminds me to be more outgoing. It reminds me to cherish those important people I do have in my life. It reminds me to smile and to be content. It reminds me to be happy. I like being happy.




On completely different note I think I will make french toast in the morning for breakfast...I would make it now but I don't want to interrupt a tender moment for my roommate...she just might hate me then!

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