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Being Genuinely Me.

I should be doing homework. I know I know, most my posts start out that way. The fact of the matter is that sometimes I blog to avoid doing homework. It happens. Life goes on.
Lately, admits the hustle and bustle of the start of a new school year, I have been thinking a lot about the little things that make me me. I know that sounds weird (but let's face it, I'm a little weird) but when you're living with new people, applying for jobs, and writing papers about things you believe in, it kind of gets the gears rolling in your brain. And sometimes I struggle to turn those gears off. In my English class (which by the way I haven't taken an English class since fall 2010 and I am loving it!) we are currently writing a "This I Believe Essay." Inspired by the NPR series "This I Believe" the assignment is to write an essay about a belief or philosophy that you live your life by. And not something generic like "I believe in Christ", "I believe in freedom", or "I believe in the Republicans/Democrats." The assignment is to dig deep and learn something about yourself from an aspect of your life that you have a true conviction in. It has got me thinking a lot about what little things I believe in or live my life by and I love it because now I have been noticing those little things in life that bring me joy. I love chocolate milk, chap stick, aprons, letters, wearing a backpack that is light, not having to blow dry my hair (thank you dry Utah air), country music, thrift stores, when my brother sings to me, making friends, laughing, cooking, watching movies, Harry Potter, blogging, hiking and being outdoors, shoes and more importantly socks, pinterest, the mint green nail polish on my fingers right now, ASL, helping people, tandem bikes, long chats with my roommates, spending time with my sister who is here at school with me, institute, my Savior Jesus Christ, muffins, and the list goes on and on. And the best part of it all is that I woke up one morning and just realized how freaking happy I am right now. I am almost 20 years old (just a few more days left of my teenage years) and I am thoroughly and genuinely enjoying life. I like who I am. I am weird and I think I am super funny but I really am probably not, and for the first time in a long time I am okay with that. My life is not perfect, by any means! Not knowing what you are doing with your life is incomprehensibly scary for me. Having my family and friends so far away=NO BUENO. But even though I wake up exhausted every morning, I have noticed that I wake up with a smile on my face and I am so grateful for that! I am grateful for those who have been put into my life to help me get here. It has been a long process and I am certainly not done growing at all but I feel like lately I have simply embraced myself and GUESS WHAT?! Being happy is awesome!

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