...you realize that you don't know how to date. When you find yourself at a crossroads and you literally have no clue which way to go because guess what, even though you are 21 years old you've never actually done this before. That moment when you realize it would optimal if your best friends weren't either A) serving a mission across the country or B) working/will never let you live it down if you let them see you right now. The moment where you wish you didn't feel the way that you do and yet at the same time you are excited and anxious to see what comes next. The moment you decide you don't care about things, but at the same time you care a lot. The moment where you just wish you were good at this so you could feel like you had a fighting chance. The awkward moment when you know that your best friend is going to tell you "that sometimes the only form of transportation available is a leap of faith" and you hate it because you know she will be right.
It's been a while since I have written anything on here. And I know it's been a while. I know that the last few weeks have been crazy, and that that is part of it. But I also know that I have sat down to write here more times than I would care to admit. I know that I have a million thoughts running around in my head. I know that I want to figure out how to let the words out and have them make sense. I know I have all these ideas about what I want to do with my life, what I want to accomplish, and who I want to become, and yet I lack the knowledge of how to get there. I know I have dreams. I know I want to be somebody that people can look up too someday. I know what I love. I know I have to make choices. I know that I ramble. A lot. I know a lot of things. Maybe I will talk about everything. Maybe I will save a post or two for another day. I know that this post is going to be long. I know that this post may be very varied when it comes to topics. I know that n...
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