This Crazy Thing We Call Life!

It's a Taylor Swift kind of day.

Guess what? I am going to plant a garden:) Okay so maybe not quite a garden, but plants. Tomatoes (2 different kinds) and squash and I am so excited! I may not have a green thumb, but I love the idea of nurturing my own plants and having my own food to eat that I have grown myself.   Hooray for nature. Hooray for plants. Hooray for gardens.

Blahh! Can I just say I hate interview day. And interviews/the whole applying for jobs process actually. I cant stand it! Don't get me wrong, I love working!  I love having a job. I started working my sophomore year of high school and when I don't have a job (the few times it has been since then when I haven't been employed) I just feel lost.  It's the act of "getting a job" that I don't like. I don't like filling out applications and sitting down for interviews.  I don't like waiting and wondering if I am going to get a phone call or whatnot saying I got an interview or I got the job. It's not that I do bad at interviews, I feel like I do okay at them. I just don't like them. I don't like applying for jobs, wondering the whole time if I am writing down on my application the specific words they are looking for. It's just not fun. And if you disagree I will simply shake my head at you and tell you that you're crazy! ...

One of my favorite songs has been on repeat constantly for the last couple days. And more than normal. I kind of feel like this song fits my life right now. And maybe it doesn't, maybe I don't understand it at all, but to me, for whatever reason, this song just fits. I don't even have a different or better way to say it. But you know what, that's okay. It's okay that I don't really know what I am doing. As long as I keep pushing along. Which IS what I am doing. So I am okay. I am okay. I have some pretty great people in my life. I am lucky that way I guess. And one of those great people would be my best friend Lexy. She a gem, the cream of the crop for sure. I feel sorry for everyone who doesn't have the privilege of knowing her. Truly. Anyways, in a month she will go on an 18 month mission for our church. I can't begin to explain how proud of her I am, and how much I look up to her. What am I going to do without her? I seriously hav...

What am I doing here? That seems to be the question I MUST answer in my life because I always seem to find myself wondering what the answer is. Until I figure it out I guess I will just continue doing what I am doing. Time will bring answers, of this I am convinced!:) Summer is weird because my sense of time seems to slip away. It seems like school has been out for forever, when really it's only been a week or so. It seems like my life has sort of stopped, while everyone else is still moving on towards whatever it is they are working towards. I feel like I am watching everyone else live their lives, grow and progress, go on adventures, and experience new things, while I sit on the other side of the glass, waiting for my turn.  Don't get me wrong, I still think I am right where I need to be right now. And I am thoroughly enjoying having the time to stop and smell the roses...or in my case...read books and take naps whenever I want too!:) I think it simply goes back to th...

Can I really get ready for a half marathon by August 31st? I have a lot of goals for the summer and I want to finish it off with a half marathon at the end of August! I really think I could do it! Along with my half some of the things I want to do before the summer ends include... 1. Read the entire Book Of Mormon. 2. Read as many books as possible (at least 25...is that too outrageous of a goal?) 3. Buy a new car. 4. Hike Table Rock. 5. Hike Mount. Timp. 6. Do Baptisms in the Rexburg and Idaho Falls Temples. 7. Hangout at the Cabin. 8. Four-Wheeling. 9. Visit the concrete jungle (Logan). 10. Visit a farmers market. 11. Make some crafts. 12. Fishing Fishing Fishing. 13. Learn to long board. 14. Weddings for days! 15. Send my best friend on a mission. 16. Thrift Store Shopping. Maybe I will add more to the list but for now this is good. 15 weeks.Let's go.

"While we have been assigned to take the test of mortality during the most spiritually rigorous and demanding time in the world's history, we have not been left alone. Most of the people who have ever lived in this world have faced their trials with no access to the fullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ. But we have that gospel. We have the gift and the power of the Holy Ghost. We have the gift and the power of saving ordinances that bind us to each other and to the Lord. We have the power of the priesthood on the earth and the gift of full access to that power. We have the gift of a prophet, seer, and revelator who holds all the keys of the kingdom. We have the gift of revealed scripture and the power contained in the Word of God. And we have the gift of understanding that the Atonement of Jesus Christ is filled with both redemptive and enabling power. All of which explains why the Lord would encourage us: "Be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you...

This summer is for me. A time for me to focus on myself and do things for me. A time for me to become the very best version of myself that I could be. This summer is about growing and changing and me. And that is perfectly okay. Watch out world, here I come.

Today, I find that this post could be written to many different individuals. I have been blessed with quite a few spectacular individuals in my life, and whether or not they understand how amazing they are to me or whether or not they realize this post could be for them, I miss many of them dearly. But today this is for someone special. Someone I said goodbye to a while ago, who I wont see for a very long time. Someone I think about more often then anyone really knows. Someone I love and miss with all my heart. This is for you. ........................................................................... I walked in. My heart started pounding. It still smells the same but I know things are different.  I was so much younger the last time I was here. So naive, with so much to learn. And you were here. It was the last time I saw you. The last time I stepped foot in this house. And now I find myself here again. In your home. Which I guess is now my home as ...