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My Brain Just Keeps Going

Tonight my brain wont turn off.
That seems to be happening to me more and more these days.
I keeps pounding and pounding.
And thinking about how weird this summer has been.

How there have been some of my favorite days with my favorite people.
How I have one of the best jobs in the world! One that I hope for for years and finally had the guts to try again for. One that has made a difference in my life in more ways than anyone could have imagined or foreseen.
How nothing I had planned has actually happened.

How sometimes people are weird. And how their tiny decisions can make me feel super crummy or like a million bucks. And they don't even realize it. And whether or not they understand or realize it, they have taught me so many things this summer about myself and the way I feel about people.  The way that people can hurt you without even knowing it. And how they can completely make your day just by giving awesome hugs.

How best friends have become strangers.
And strangers have become best friends...
And how on occasion they go back to being strangers again.

How I have had four different jobs in the last few months.
How I finally quit the job I had for over a year because something better came along.

How I found a house to live in for the fall.

How I lost the best dog a girl could ask for. And how I was a wreck for a few days because of it. How even now just typing that brings tears to my eyes.

All the adventures I've been on and all the ones I've missed out on.
Not living for anyone else, but also not living up to my potential.

Setting goals and accomplishing some and not others.

Getting my food handlers permit.

Getting sick an odd amount of times.

Celebrating the Fourth of July by myself.
Without muddy buddies.

And all the late night cereal dinners after getting off work super late.






And honestly I could keep going but I will stop for your sakes!


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