Sometimes life just slaps you in the face. It says "Hey, you think things should go this way huh? Well guess what, YOU ARE WRONG! You don't get to decide, and as much as you fight it, things are going this way instead." Can I tell you how frustrating this is? To think things should be one way and then have them turn out to be completely opposite. And as much as you wish and hope and pray that things will work out, as much as you read into things and see things that aren't really there, the fact of the matter is you are wrong. Or at least I am. And it's quite unfortunate sometimes.
This is the time of year when we evaluate our lives. We look at the last 364 days and ponder on our struggles and our triumphs. We look at the person we have become over the last 12 months and we plan to do better in the coming 12. This is the time of year we are dedicated to making a change, and as I sit here thinking back to this time exactly 365 days ago, I am astounded at how far I have come. Almost ashamed of the person I was then and truly proud of the person I am now. For one of the first times in my life I can say that I can see myself becoming the person I want to become. In the last year I have felt sorrow and defeat and loneliness. I have faced struggles and heartache and frustrations. But I have also felt peace. I have felt joy and happiness and love. I set goals and I achieved them. I have had experiences that have taught me so many valuable lessons, and I have met people who have changed me forever. And I am so grateful. And so as we finish out this awfully beautiful year...
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