This Crazy Thing We Call Life!

First, let me just say, I had a HORRIBLE week. Like one of the worst/longest weeks of MY LIFE! Okay so maybe not of my life, but of the semester FOR SURE!! Without going into too much of the oh so lovely details, I had tests and quizzes and service hours and lessons to teach, and academically my plans sort of crumbled a little bit and so I had to spend time trying to put it back together and figure out what I am going to do. STRESS STRESS STRESS for sure!!! AND THEN! On top of all of that I had a friend not treat me the nicest. Yeah I know that makes me sound like I am five, but the thing is I was trying really hard to do what I felt was best even if it wasn't necessarily what I wanted and I am human and when someone isn't the nicest it can hurt, especially when it is someone you care about. ANYWAYS, I literally felt like I was running non-stop all week long! But now it is over and after class today I just laid in my bed and did nothing but relax! (I took a nap, it was fantast...

Why am I such a hopeless romantic? Allowing myself to get caught up in the idea of love and finding the one. I watch chick flicks over and over again hoping that someday that magical experience will happen to me and that I will find my happily ever after. I love love. The idea that someone could care for me enough to give me their all, and I the same to them. I long for it and yet I am so scared that one day it will find me. That one day all this dreaming and imagining I do will become the reality and I will no longer be able to hide behind my movies and my books. And then what? I don't really know...and I don't really know why this has been on my mind except for the fact that I have been up to my usual watching of romantic movies and reading lovey quotes. Ha also I have a friend who says "love happens when you don't expect it...BUT WHAT IF YOU ALWAYS EXPECT IT?!" haha I love that. And also this post is completely random and I don't really know what else to sa...

So I know it has been a while since I have blogged anything and for that I do apologize. I don't know who reads this if anyone does, but I should be better about being more regular with my posts. The truth is this....I have wanted to post multiple times actually, I just cant get my words straight. And it has been extremely frustrating. I am at a spot in my life where things just are. I don't even know how to explain it better than that. Things just are. They are frustrating and tiring and good and confusing and strengthening and humbling and I don't even know what to do with myself. I have no job (and not do to a lack of looking I must add), and no car, I have been sick for like a week now which is SO overrated, and I am a little overwhelmed with school work right now. I desperately want this semester to be over with, to know what I am going to be doing/where I am going to be living this summer, and actually have some concrete plans. And let me tell you, I am an emotional p...