This Crazy Thing We Call Life!

Tonight my brain wont turn off. That seems to be happening to me more and more these days. I keeps pounding and pounding. And thinking about how weird this summer has been. How there have been some of my favorite days with my favorite people. How I have one of the best jobs in the world! One that I hope for for years and finally had the guts to try again for. One that has made a difference in my life in more ways than anyone could have imagined or foreseen. How nothing I had planned has actually happened. How sometimes people are weird. And how their tiny decisions can make me feel super crummy or like a million bucks. And they don't even realize it. And whether or not they understand or realize it, they have taught me so many things this summer about myself and the way I feel about people.  The way that people can hurt you without even knowing it. And how they can completely make your day just by giving awesome hugs. How best friends have become strangers. And stranger...

Sometimes I am lonely. There I said it. Sometimes I am lonely. And sometimes I get sad. Or angry. Or frustrated. But I feel like I cant talk about it, like I have to always be the happy, stress-free version of myself. And that is not always the case. But here's the thing...those stressed out, frustrated, lonely times don't take away the joy and the happiness and the love I feel all the time! It is still there and still thriving. So why can't I talk about how there are times when I am so overwhelmed I literally don't know what to do with myself besides crawl under the covers and never come out? Why can't I share when I am feeling down, or struggling, or alone? And why does it seem like such a TABOO  topic to admit? Seriously I can't be the only one who ever has or ever will feel this way. Impossible. The world is not all rainbows and sunshine all of the time and that is okay. And whether or not you like the rain it is going to come and I am a firm be...

Summer should last longer. There is no logical reason that at this point it should already be half way over. And country music should always be playing. Always. Cereal should be more widely accepted as an anytime food. The fact that I've eaten cereal for two of my three meals every day this week should not be a problem for anyone. Gardens should be more of a thing. As a college student, I wish I could have a garden. I want to grow my own food and then cook it for the people I love. Fresh veggies and such from a garden on a summer's day...you're not going to get much better than that my friend.  Folding/putting away laundry is basically the worst part of having clean clothes. People should be kinder to each other. And more forward.  If I care about you or miss you I am going to tell you that and I shouldn't feel like I am risking our relationship (platonic or otherwise) by doing so. Why cant we just say what we are thinking? If they are nice words they d...